Believe You NOT

"See, I do believe,

I believe in you, I just don’t believe you. The difference in instance."

The answer to tell the truth from the question; why does the empath fall for trusting the narcissist so easily and keep letting themselves remain a victim of narcissistic hurt for supply.

The sad truth is, the empath, knows exactly what is hurting them… He feels when your heart is astray, senses the lies in the stories you make, he feels the penetration you take for temporary satisfaction like being stabbed repeatedly in the heart by a wooden stake, he crumbles when you enjoy it, and breaks when you continue to deny lying..

the True empath.. Well, he sees right through you, yet he understands that you cannot change, and chooses to stay doing the impossible, hoping one day you do what is possible…

But after chance and chance, after forgiving you over the same stupid thing over and over again… Eventually you will have to be face to face with reality, all because you could not face me, not even to prove your honesty.. because lets be honest, there was nothing honestly honest in the slightest you ever said to me… was there?

And to be clear, NO WE DID NOT GIVE UP LOVING YOU!!

we gave up, fighting you… we would never stop fighting for you… but we are not stupid, and we know eventually that you will never stop fighting against us.. so we will have to stop.. being there for you to fight..

We never gave up on you, never stopped loving you…

we just stopped giving up on ourselves, stopped not loving us.

because we put ourselves aside so you can feel love.. and all we wanted was the truth. So you would finally have the love you claim to have always been so deprived of, the love you always wanted, the love you already had; from me..

because I loved you, you… Not the fake image you wanted me to believe in you and trust you were telling the truth, but we loved you for who you truly were. The real you.. we love you despite you or the things you did.. we didnt care about the past, we care about the present and what you do…

we forgive, to forget, but we cannot forget, to forgive that you dont let us live..

you wanted a false love because you believe my love if it were true, was obedience and shown in complete blind faith and trust in my belief that you expect; me to believe you…

But you don’t understand why you are wrong, dont see what you ask for is false love, because you dont see the simplicity of the difference between when I say this to you..

“I believe in you, I just dont believe, you.”

love is not about believing your lies like a obedient little child who thinks santa is real..

Love is seeing right through your destructive obsession with destruction and obstruction of your toxic seduction and your construction of your own impulsiveness jump to wrongful function; but loving you anyway, seeing the good in your heart even though you think love is weakness and act as if you have no heart and enjoy it while you rip mine apart..

But we are not weak for loving.. Infact I just proved that love is stronger than anything, because I love you… Even though to you, I am nothing.. I survived loving you, and can still honestly say that I am so happy to have loved you, and I will proudly always love you..

But I am not a game to any gain for you after today.. Because today is the last day I fight to make it my life to be hurt with negligence until I meet my final existence..

See I knowingly chose a life of being worthless to you, just to be the only one worth your true love..

But if you cannot be true to me, then youre not being true to yourself either really..

So I guess we lost the destiny that was never destined to be..

I cant let you hurt me anymore. Because I love you too much to let you do this to yourself.. Hurting me only hurts you more than you will ever know truly.. I only hope, you dont kill yourself for losing me…

because you chose death, over life of loyalty and faithfulness to me.. so why die, when you chose to love other men physically, and not me…

you wanted me to love you emotionally, while you physically loved anyone else but me..

That is why you have no idea what you truly lost… When the price you did not want to pay, only cost me, just a pawn off the board of the game you play.

You didnt want to stop playing me.. kept betraying me.. so dont stop playing just because you lost me..

or you will be facing your own self, in your own personal hell… everything you run from will be nothing you can get away from..

see.. I saved your life, but I couldnt save you from yourself… And that is what hurts me.

see. Love doesnt fall on your laps like a obedient little dog that fits in your purse so long as you give it food and water and a butler to do it for you..

because true love hurts.

thats why you hurt me. So all I can hope. Is that it hurts losing me… So I know that the good I believed in, is still in there somewhere. And I hope you learn something..

Anything..

God be with you.

I, am with you.. even if you don’t see me.