If I Didn’t Fight

Had to inhale

my pride

Cut out the cancer

that was embedded

deep inside

As tears run down my face

I’m still here in this place

Enjoying another taste

Days intertwined with black lace

Cheated fate

Destiny rewritten

Grimm Reaper seems smitten

Every exhale a gift to me

Living each day happily

Earned because I fought

With all my might

Grasping at straws

That seemed out of sight

Positive mentality

Still remains

Overcoming dooming fatality

Though my life now

Never the same

I’ll not wallow

Trying to put off my sorrow

thinking about an impending task

living now impulsively

I’ll do me

there is no one I even have to ask

Ringing the bell

In the grave

I’m not ready yet

Had to be brave

Climbing out of the muddy trenches

That I was buried in

More time

I did win

Living in a world

That I created

Bittersweet memories

Of past once hated

Ripped off the disguise

Of the Lingering lies

This took years of tries

I wouldn’t be here today

If I didn’t fight for my life

in my own way

this time is all mine

This is the atmosphere

I’ve always wanted

I’m giggling inside can’t you hear

even though past shadows stay near

So thankful that I made it

Scorched by the fire

But now I stay lit

Climbing on my scars

While reaching for the stars

-Black Widow