A break that broke me

Holy shit am I ever at a scare, so don't even dare, cuz I got the fucking stare,

been looking at this wall for a long second now, all im doing now, is guessing how,

what the fuck am I gonna do about all this shit, even got me chanting a fucking skit, i'll be honest, i'm not scared of your answer, i'm scared of these 5 days, in all history, a break was never to think, it was all about another shrink dink, i'ma call this a definite test, if you come back to me clean and not as a pest, then for ever i'ma rest, and i'ma continue to love you with my best.

But my mind is going crazy now, don't know how, can't bend over or bow,

just wanna lay here now. I'm just laying and staring, this ceiling ain't changing,

now my mind is raging, this shit got a war in me waging. But like I said,

come back clean and true, and it's still gonna be me and you, and what statement,

forever would be an understatement, and love? What the fuck is that?

That don't say nearly enough, what a damn resentment. I'ma tell you baby,

it should be me and you forever, and ever, and ever, and ever, keep it going till when ever,

cuz you are my lure and my lever, i live in you, no longer in me, my heart is gone, how could that be? Cuz of you and me. If you leave me, I ain't gunna judge, i'll just wipe off the smudge, and walk away, be in pain forever like every day, thats if I cant make you stay, But come back to me, and happy I will be, and you will see, i'ma be as good as can be, you and me. Can't stress this shit enough, I dunno if you'll ever see this or not, but I am writing my feelings so I will never forget, if I get hurt, well that's what I get. This will remind me of how I felt, how my first and only true fear was these 5 days. None stop, outa reality, it got me physically, mentally, and emotionally fucked right up if i'm speaking honestly. Right now i am in a weird place, I hope all you needed is space, cuz I hope that you never leave me, I love you definitely, but this argument, over not speaking, I am really sorry, no more talking, just don't wanna worry.